This was my Facebook memory from this date in 2015. 4 years into the healing post cancer:
Here we GROW again. Sunny says vulnerability is your courage.. so here I am .. being vulnerable and courageous.. any good spiritual teacher teaches from their past and their life lessons and learns and grows from them and then shares..
Today is the day 4 years ago that I found out #Ihadcancer. It was a devastating day. My dear husband and my true best friend, my sister Pina were there with me as I heard that I had cancer in my uterus but that the cells did not originate there.. I remember Dr. Jarrell's face.. he told me how sorry he was .. He really cares about his patients. At that time Pina worked at TBCC and through her connections- Dr. Ghatage saw me right away and scheduled surgery for Aug 8 2011. My life would never be the same again. At that surgery I had a total abdominal hysterectomy, bilateral oophorectomy, omentectomy, appendectomy and 12 lymph nodes removed. That single day propelled me into medical menopause of which for me there is no treatment for me as the cancer is hormonally mediated.
I prayed to God for help. The help came via many different resources and teachers. I followed my guidance and after the second abdominal surgery in July 2012 and after 6 chemos I met the most amazing teacher in Sunny. I went to healing retreats and did her MBS. I knew that through the cancer I was meant to heal myself. I had to heal my soul and I had to heal that inner little girl that was wounded. Through our life we have STUFF to heal. and while we are healing there may be times where that little girl comes up and behaves exactly like that.. a little girl who just wants to be seen.. to be heard.. and to be validated. I am not excusing the behaviour .. I am just saying.. when you are healing and growing.. and meeting your pain head on it may bring up stuff that needs for you to LET IT GO. But forgiveness by God and forgiveness that we give ourselves is the key to growth. Its the key to freedom. Because there will be people on the path that don't get it and have expectations of you to be who they think you should be. when that inner little girl comes up during healing, the situation may not be a good one and if you have said sorry and truly mean it two things can happen.. you can forgive and move on or hold on to resentment . Forgive. God forgives us. He loves us unconditionally.
this is an amazing post below by Kris Carr .. take a read.. and a picture of my inner little girl.
I am so blessed that I have a new teacher to hold my hand during my healing as well as the amazing Sunny-and as fate would have it we are learning how to heal our inner little girl. So I am letting myself off the hook.. I am holding the hands of these amazing teachers. And I am looking to my amazing mom for the love and guidance that I need.
Spirituality is living and growing and healing, learning and expanding.
I am committed to my expansion. I am deserving and I am ready.
I am so excited to see where the next best step leads me.. and I am grateful to God, Goddess, Angels, Guides for helping me.
As I reflect back on these 6 years, I count all the blessings of love and support I had and have. I am grateful to God for teaching me to trust my intuition. I am proud of me for allowing my spirit to guide me and I am proud for listening!! You can get through anything if only you change your thoughts and beliefs. It takes work... but you are worth it. I am too.
Self- love to heal. Claim your power to heal. Heal your life!! As long as I have breath, I will be vocal in helping people tap into their DIVINE teams of support.
God bless you all.