You see, part of my journey has been to experience earth school in a large body. I am still healing that part of my life and coming to terms that I chose it to have the experiences I am. Every day I choose healthy and every day I wake up to the same body. This body is my earth suit. It has carried me through childhood, adolescence, adulthood, becoming a lover and becoming a mother. It carries my soul around and when I got to the diagnosis of diabetes I didn't heed God's whispers and God presented me with a diagnosis of Cancer. Soon after that day, I began my healing journey. I had to heal all the name calling I endured. I had to heal the hurt my phys-ed teachers caused by calling me names. I will never forget one male physical education teacher who would ridicule me all the time. I hated going to that class. Yes I went. I never skipped a class. When I think of it now, I wonder why I never told my mom? hmmmmm!! Healing the inner little girl is bringing up all this old pain. I should have said something. It wasn't right.
Fast forward to today. I am recognizing my worthiness and I am a teacher who every day encourages people to dig deep to find their worthiness. Putting yourself down or making a mockery of yourself is not ok. I had to learn to love the skin I am in right now! Not 100 pounds less from now. I know I had to love myself enough to heal and to learn to see myself through the eyes of love.
When I messaged this person, they said they were making fun of themselves and so deleted the post. Our conversation could have gone bad, but it didn't. I explained myself to them and they understood. I hope that it was a teaching moment for them. I told them I am not a fat piece of shit.... I am a beautiful creation of God and no longer will I just ignore when someone I love is making fun of themselves. There is a loving, compassionate way to do it. I believe she saw what I saw and how I saw this post. People have skin, nails, hair and fat. They are not fat. God created us. Imperfectly perfect. And until the day I leave the physical world I will be a change maker. No longer will I sit idly by.
Use your lessons to heal each other. Who knows, maybe I did affect change. Maybe I didn't. But for me, I spoke up and it made all the difference. Today, is my Archangel Chamuel day. Archangel Chamuel is the Archangel of unconditional love and adoration. We are so loved. I just know He and Mother Mary were nudging me to speak up. There is so much more to life to worry about than our weight. Of course, health is important. We strive to do our best and remain healthy. We do not have to beat ourselves up because of the number on the scale. It is just a number.
Be kind to yourself and then allow that kindness to ripple out. Words have power. Choose yours carefully and watch your self talk as Y O U are listening. The body responds to it all. If you love your body, it will love you back. When you don't, you will experience sickness. Yes my friends it is true. Love yourself. Be your own best friend. Start today.
I created an acronym for HEAL it is
Allow healing in your life. Love yourself. Your life depends on it.