Grieving with Grace: Navigating the Profound Loss of My Mother
In August, on the 17th, my world changed forever. Losing my mother, a guiding presence in my life, has left a void that feels immeasurable. Despite the years of work I’ve invested in healing, in nurturing my spirit and learning to live with grace, this grief feels uniquely profound. It’s as if all the tools I’ve used to heal over the last 12 years are being called upon in new and unexpected ways. This is a journey that isn’t about moving on but about moving through, and about finding a way to remain open to the presence and love of my mother, even though she is no longer here in the physical sense. Drawing on a Lifetime of Healing These years have taught me to recognize grief as a language of its own, a way for the heart to express its most vulnerable truths. I’m leaning into my faith, meditation, journaling, the rosary and prayer—the practices that have been my foundation—yet with a deeper, more tender intention. Each practice, once focused on self-healing, is now also a bridge, a way to stay connected to my mother’s spirit, to feel her love around me, even as I navigate the ache of missing her physical presence. Learning the Language of Spirit This journey is asking me to trust in new ways, to listen differently. I believe that connecting with my mother now means learning to recognize the signs, the gentle nudges, and the quiet, almost whispered ways she might speak to me from beyond. Grieving with grace means being open to this language, one that is subtle and soft but immensely powerful. This week I started a mediumship course that I hope will deepen my connection to the spirit world. Setting an Intention to Grieve with Grace My intention now is simple, though not easy: to grieve with grace. For me, this means honouring my pain without letting it close me off from the love and support that surrounds me. It means giving myself the gentleness my mother would want for me. I am discovering that grief doesn’t have to be an enemy; it can also be a teacher, a path toward something new and sacred. I understand that grief is a journey and that there are many stages of grief. I also understand that you can be fine one moment and have a trigger and then you are not fine. Inviting You into the Journey If you are also grieving, know that you’re not alone. I share this in the hope that perhaps my words can help others feel less isolated in their sorrow. Together, we can learn to hold our grief gently, to connect with the spirit of those we have lost, and to let their love continue to guide us forward. At this time I don't feel the need for a grief counsellor, however I know that it is available should I need it. In the meantime I have a daily spiritual practice and I have God, Jesus, Mother Mary, Holy angels and my ancestors in spirit to help me. I am learning her signs and I told her the other day I WANT HER TO TALK TO ME. Halloween is a potent time to connect to the spirit world because the veil is so thin. Tomorrow is All saint's day and then the next day is all soul's day. Grief is not new but this is different. Losing a mom is profound. It is as if the axis of my life has shifted and with it I am forced to find new ways to stand and to BE. There is an unspoken comfort that mothers bring. A presence that, even in the quietest moments can help you feel held, understood, known. And now with her gone, there is a part of me that feels untethered. People often say that time heals all wounds, but this one feels raw in a way that makes it hard to believe that saying. It is not just time, it is what we do to heal during this time that will heal my open, gaping wound and it is patience, self compassion and a willingness to be gentle to myself. It is a self care that is more than physical, it is mind body and soul. I am giving myself the permission to feel the weight of this grief without expecting it to pass quickly. I am allowing each tear, each moment of sorrow to be fully felt without judgement. I am allowing myself the space to process the sacred walk I had with her. I am in gratitude to God for the five weeks we had with her in Kelowna. And I am in gratitude that she got to go home to Fernie. Grieving the loss of a mother is not about moving on, but moving through . It is about learning to carry her memory within me in a way that honours her, while still making room for my growth, my healing. And that journey I am learning requires as much gentleness as courage. Two years ago she gifted us four children a sum of money and she knew I was going to Italy and Greece. She was so happy for me. I felt her on my trip. I wore a sunhat and a t-shirt of hers on the trip. I felt her in every breeze that touched my cheeks and in every step I took. I can't wait to learn more and feel her more. I really believe you can grieve with grace and that is my intention moving forward. I thank God for the help. And I know where she is..... where the love never dies!! I am open again to be of service for " word of the year readings, full year support readings and all general readings." Thank you.
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Holly Bird
11/2/2024 07:41:13 am
Keeping you and your family in my positive thoughts and healing prayers! 🙏😇💛
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Giuliana
11/2/2024 08:43:58 am
Thank you dear Holly
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Lore-lie Steinitz
11/3/2024 08:42:54 pm
Grief is a bittersweet journey. One that can be as healing as it is devastating. Sending you love and support as you navigate this difficult time.
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