On wednesday night I was a part of the "embrace your body" zoom room class held by Sunny Dawn Johnston. Sunny is a teacher who teaches from her experiences. When she was young she held extra weight. She learned how to love herself and now rocks a smoking hot body. I trust her and I believe in her. When she speaks I hear her.
She spoke on the body, mind, spirit connection. She discussed how the body hears everything the mind thinks and everything we speak. She says there is an emotional component behind every dis-ease. Her no nonsense approach with her "You can't B.S.your body" statement really hit home with me.
You see I am healing. I do my affirmations, I keep very positive and I stay out of fear for the most part. I always know when I am not in alignment as I get sick. Case in point; a big honking cold sore for the last week. When she read the emotions behind it from the Inna Segal book-
The Secret Language of your Body, I resonated with it. It states; feeling deprived, like you are not getting what you want. Difficulty communicating your desires because of fear of rejection or of to being liked. Feeling uncomfortable, disappointed, and angry. Allowing others to control and manipulate you, then feeling let down, frustrated and disillusioned. Whoa!! It was exactly what was going on with me. You can't b.s. the body!!! So I knew I had to breathe, ground, and up the self-care. I got super reiki from a male shaman friend of mine and I sat with God again for more time. Sunny's forgiveness meditation that she did toward the end of the class also helped me release my guilt and shame. I got a message from Archangel Zadkiel. He said I am forgiven. I don't need to earn it. I am enough. I am worthy and I am so very loved.
Our bodies are sacred vessels that we chose before we came into physical form. We chose it for our spiritual journey here on earth. This body that we are in right now is perfect. Of course we can make it better in terms of muscle mass and health. That is our home for our soul.
Sunny reminded us that we are the ones who abuse ourselves. We are the hardest person on us and she asked us if we would put up with the abuse from someone else the way we abuse ourselves! What a big question that reduced me to tears. It is true. I berate myself. I beat myself up. I talk badly to myself. My body is sore. My body resists me. My body gives up.
I know its because of my negative self talk. She said to decide right there and then "not one more minute of the self abuse talk!". I am resolving to speak better to myself. To love myself back to health as I deserve it!!
I know that the fat I carry is energy of fear. Fear of being beautiful. Fear of being more than I have ever been. You see it is safe in the shadows. When you put yourself out there for all to see, then you get judged! That too is one of my 5 fears I am working on. I am doing better but I still have a way to go.
I am grateful to this teacher for her love, support, knowledge and experience. She is integral, she is funny, she is smart and I love and appreciate her. If you too would like to join in on a zoom room class with me or Sunny you can find us on fb and at www.sunnydawnjohnston.com and www.giulianamelo.com
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