All the negative self-talk seemed real to me. Managing my fear, meant I first had to identify what was I afraid of? My six fears are:
- not feeling enough
- not feeling worthy
- wanting to be liked and loved by everyone
- feeling judged, and judging myself
- giving my power away
- hiding myself because of my size
The night I was to talk in Calgary had been an opportunity to help someone walk through cancer! The one talker spoke of her diagnosis and then had her head shaved in front of all of us. Her sister and I believe her daughter also shaved their heads. It was a powerful night and I made the decision to sit as a spectator instead of sharing my story that would have made a difference.
You see my story that I will be sharing, is one of healing. My speech is entitled, " claim your power to heal, how a cancer diagnosis changed my life for the better!" It would have been perfect!! However I can't go back. I can only look forward and keep the words Brigitte guided me with! "If you are scared, do it anyway!!" So I will work through the fear and keep my date of speaking. I will be making my speaking debut in Kimberly BC on Aug 28, 2018. Then on Sept 18 I will be speaking in Okotoks Ab. I look forward to sharing my story.
There is a beautiful Marianne Williamson quote I would love to share.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. "
I do believe this to be true. I believe we are afraid to shine too bright.
However my greatest teachers have taught me to never turn down my light. To allow it to shine bright and do so with an open heart.
So there are no more excuses and no more comparison to others except to inspire me to be better. I am stepping out of the fear!! I will reach my greatest potential and I will remember that the sky is the limit!!!
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Don't be afraid.. and if you are, gather your courage and do it anyway!!!!
Dream Big. Be scared and do it anyway!!!