On wednesday night I was a part of the "embrace your body" zoom room class held by Sunny Dawn Johnston. Sunny is a teacher who teaches from her experiences. When she was young she held extra weight. She learned how to love herself and now rocks a smoking hot body. I trust her and I believe in her. When she speaks I hear her.
She spoke on the body, mind, spirit connection. She discussed how the body hears everything the mind thinks and everything we speak. She says there is an emotional component behind every dis-ease. Her no nonsense approach with her "You can't B.S.your body" statement really hit home with me.
You see I am healing. I do my affirmations, I keep very positive and I stay out of fear for the most part. I always know when I am not in alignment as I get sick. Case in point; a big honking cold sore for the last week. When she read the emotions behind it from the Inna Segal book-
The Secret Language of your Body, I resonated with it. It states; feeling deprived, like you are not getting what you want. Difficulty communicating your desires because of fear of rejection or of to being liked. Feeling uncomfortable, disappointed, and angry. Allowing others to control and manipulate you, then feeling let down, frustrated and disillusioned. Whoa!! It was exactly what was going on with me. You can't b.s. the body!!! So I knew I had to breathe, ground, and up the self-care. I got super reiki from a male shaman friend of mine and I sat with God again for more time. Sunny's forgiveness meditation that she did toward the end of the class also helped me release my guilt and shame. I got a message from Archangel Zadkiel. He said I am forgiven. I don't need to earn it. I am enough. I am worthy and I am so very loved.
Our bodies are sacred vessels that we chose before we came into physical form. We chose it for our spiritual journey here on earth. This body that we are in right now is perfect. Of course we can make it better in terms of muscle mass and health. That is our home for our soul.
Sunny reminded us that we are the ones who abuse ourselves. We are the hardest person on us and she asked us if we would put up with the abuse from someone else the way we abuse ourselves! What a big question that reduced me to tears. It is true. I berate myself. I beat myself up. I talk badly to myself. My body is sore. My body resists me. My body gives up.
I know its because of my negative self talk. She said to decide right there and then "not one more minute of the self abuse talk!". I am resolving to speak better to myself. To love myself back to health as I deserve it!!
I know that the fat I carry is energy of fear. Fear of being beautiful. Fear of being more than I have ever been. You see it is safe in the shadows. When you put yourself out there for all to see, then you get judged! That too is one of my 5 fears I am working on. I am doing better but I still have a way to go.
I am grateful to this teacher for her love, support, knowledge and experience. She is integral, she is funny, she is smart and I love and appreciate her. If you too would like to join in on a zoom room class with me or Sunny you can find us on fb and at www.sunnydawnjohnston.com and www.giulianamelo.com
This is my new logo. The heart is a symbol of the love that we all are and that I want to share. The green is for Archangel Raphael and healing and the pink is love of Archangel Chamuel.
I look forward to the future! I am creating a life where I can be of service and do readings to help open the door to healing with messages from our Divine helpers and with Divine life force energy.
If I can help you, please contact me.
5 years ago today, I was one day postop. I had a total abdominal hysterectomy, bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy, appendectomy , omentectomy and multiple lymph node dissection. Sounds invasive right? it was. I knew I had cancer, however at this point I didn't know the extent. The biopsy I had prior just said I had cancer cells in my uterus that didn't originate there. Naively I thought I was going into surgery, getting everything out and then I would be able to go to the status quo of my life. I had to concentrate on healing the excruciating pain my body was experiencing. Intuitively I knew to send love and light to my pelvic cavity and abdominal wound.
When I returned home, I was blessed to have the most supportive husband and mom and extended family. My inner little girl just wanted to be nurtured. There is nothing quite like a mom's love. It is healing. She stayed with me for a month. When mom and I went to see the oncologist we only got to see a resident who was not very good yet at delivering bad news. I knew what questions to ask, but she did not know how to deliver gently or to allow the patient to be informed and hopeful. I asked what grade and stage the cancer was. She just said I had mets and that the primary wasn't in the uterus. Mom and I left feeling numb and in shock. I thought I was going to die. Thank God, when I got home, my sister and my mom took it upon themselves to jump into action for answers. My sister had worked for the cancer clinic for 20 years so she knew who to call to get the answers we seeked. The head of oncology called my mom back and we got all the answers.
Stage 3 serous carcinoma of the peritoneum with mets to the uterus, cervix, tubes, ovaries and appendix. Lymph nodes clear. Chemo highly suggested. Carbo Taxol x 6 rounds. Whew!! what a diagnosis. I had an out of body experience. Me? Cancer?? NO!!! I didn't want to die. I wanted to live. I wanted to experience my 25th wedding anniversary. I wanted to see Paulo jr graduate. Right then and there I resolved to heal. That is the moment I met my soul. I tuned into that part of me that is God and I asked Him in to my life in a way that I never had before. I was compliant with western medicine and I tuned into my spiritual guidance. I felt the hand of my grandma Josephine, in spirit, helping me. I felt my friend Ann-Marie loving me from the other side. I also felt all my guardian angels with me. I began to be open to reiki, biofeedback, sound therapy, herbs, marine phytoplankton. I prayed, meditated and listened to Hayhouse radio for your soul. I was guided to teachers, gurus, and mentors. I went to retreats to heal my old wounds. I went to Oprah twice. I saw Deepak Chopra, Iyanla Vanzant, Tony Robbins, and Rev TD Jakes. I went to John of God in Toronto. I took my healing seriously. I knew I had to heal mind, body, spirit. I learned to think positive and to ask God and the angels for love, support, guidance, inspiration and healing. I had to learn to love myself as much as I have loved everyone else my whole life.
This journey brought me to today. I feel whole, perfect and complete even though I still carry extra weight. I know healing is an evolution. It starts the day I was born and will continue until I return to spirit. I know I am spirit embodied. I know God created me. I have a daily spiritual practice and I spend time with God each day. I know life is a journey. It is not always easy. That is part of growth. The hard parts are where we learn the lessons we are in earth school to experience. We are supported through it all. It is all in how we choose to see it. We can choose to sit in fear of the future and in anger at the experiences or we can choose to travel through each day in trust. I choose TRUST.
I know only love is real. Fear is an illusion. I know fear is ego. I tell my ego to get lost and I centre my energy with the strength of God and the angels he gifted us with.
If I can ever help you with an angel card reading and or positivity coaching, or just an ear to listen, please email me at email@example.com.
God bless you all,
"the name of the Lord is a strong Tower, The Righteous man runs into it and is safe" - proverbs 18:10
"When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love" - Marcus Aurelius
"If you believe it will work out, you will see opportunities. If you believe it won't, you will see obstacles" - Wayne Dyer
My day with "WomenTalk" at "Equine Connection" learning to Blaze a New Trail at the "Trailblazer on Fire" half day workshop....
Wow! What a day I had today! This was one of the most incredible workshops I have ever had the blessing to be a part of. You might be asking what is Women Talk? WomenTalk is an evening gathering where women present and share their stories, thoughts, ideas and experiences. You will laugh, you will learn and you will be entertained by WOMEN talkers. The evenings are fast paced and Ted-talk style. The women are from all walks of life. Women Talk is growing! The original night was created by Brigitte Lessard in Calgary, but has expanded to include, Edmonton, Strathmore, and now Red Deer. With other locations in the works. Women Talk is a growing phenomenon that promises to expand right across Canada. "By sharing their stories, Women make their community stronger" Brigitte Lessard Founder and CEO. The next Calgary date is August 17, 2016 from 7 - 9 at the Coast Plaza Hotel. You can purchase tickets at www.womentalk.ca. For more info you can call (403) 813-1209.
Now onto the day we had today. My healing journey has lead me to Brigitte and Women Talk Calgary. I am not ready to talk just yet, but I am gathering my courage and rewriting my old story from victim to thriver and I am almost ready, so in the meantime I am a part of her social media team. I help share posts on Facebook and Twitter. It is a volunteer position that I am so proud to have. I am so happy to be a part of the team. Because of that, she selected me to join her and her directors today. I am filled with so much gratitude at this invitation and I couldn't wait to get to the site just outside of Strathmore, where Equine Connection is. I couldn't wait to meet the horses. When I walked into the Arena I looked to my left and there was Mr. Jordy. Jordy is a special addition to the Equine Connection as he is a curly horse. He is a rare breed with curly hair! He loves people and is highly intelligent, quick to learn and one of the most sacred teachers I have ever had. He has a quiet temperament and does not spook or run. I had an immediate connection with him. Then I looked around the arena at the other 3 horses and sent them all love and appreciation for their work they were about to do. I knew I was ready now to have this experience. I had heard of equine therapy before with healing with autistic children, but I never knew of such a program to empower women! And it is right here in our backyard!
After having a peek in the arena, we had a welcome by 3 of the loveliest ladies on the team. Their names are Kari Fulmek, Jan Johnson, and Carolyn Charles. They facilitated the building safety plan, and a powerpoint on the 6 skills every trailblazing women needs. They are Courage, Competence, Creativity, Communication, Collaboration and Confidence. They asked us " Are we leading our lives? or are we being led? Is it time for you to map out powerful new dreams and direction for your life? Why YES it is!!
Trailblazer on Fire is designed for optimal learning in a hands-on environment where constant teachable moments are facilitated one-on-one to install and ensure women participants move forward with the powerful skills they need to lead dynamic lives.
Why horses? Horses are the teachers. They look for strong leadership and are willing to follow, but only after they find respect and trust. Working with horses in leadership skill development, you can learn to take empowered action, try new behaviours and connect with your passionate self. The changes that you experiences are immediate... as horses live "in the moment". You can't fool them!!!!
When we moved to the arena for the first time with the horses, of course I gravitated to my beautiful teacher JORDY. A partner and I groomed him and then he lay down. He was very relaxed and seemed to listen to our every word. The messages he gave me were clear: 1. JUST BE
2. REST 3. Don't sweat the small stuff 4. BREATHE. My partner saw his rest as him being lazy. Interesting the way we both got our messages.
Then we regrouped in the classroom and did a quiz on our communication styles. Very interesting. I am "connector" and an "influencer". I had less qualities of the "doer" and "thinker". Although you use all 4 in your life, I am definitely strongest in connecting people. I am a reliable team player who looks after everyone in my tribe. I am consistent and caring. My second one was the Influencer. They are inspirational, understanding, and encouraging. Doers tend to be high achievers and leaders and drive necessary results. No surprise that our own Brigitte Lessard fit into that category! She is an amazing woman and I am so proud to know her.
Thinkers tend to excel when they like their work and can think through all angles and contingencies. It was very interesting to learn my communication style. I also learned that you have to be able to ADAPT to be a strong leader.
Once again it was time to head into the arena to do some more work with our horse teachers. I got to work with Brigitte and the horse named Kokanee( those of you from Fernie will laugh at that synchronicity !).
Kokanee is a friendly Canadian Warmblood gelding, with a super cheeky personality. He is strong and loves his job. For this part of the learning we had to work as a team with a short rope and a long rope attached to him. With these ropes and our minds we had to lead him around specific obstacles. I was so nervous I forgot all the rules!! When Kari reminded me of them, I felt grounded again. Very interesting in that when Brigitte led and I supported, Kokanee did as we intended. When Brigitte asked me if I wanted to lead, I became less confident and Kokanee felt it and didn't behave in the same way. As soon as I surrendered again to the support position, he lead us beautifully. Brigitte is a strong leader. She took that horse and lead him like nothing I ever saw before. I am a leader, but in this instance it felt comfortable allowing Brigitte to lead our 1500 pound teacher and I fulfill the support position.
I learned so so much of myself. I learned that I am strong. I have a strong mind and I am healing. All of my healing work has brought me to today. When we completed the tasks successfully, we had time to reflect. There are no words to explain my experience.. It was a feeling, a knowing and a growth only felt at a soul level. I manifested this experience for myself. I put it out to the universe and my Divine Team brought me to Brigitte and on to the workshop today. I have done a lot of healing over the last 5 years. Today elevated me to that next evolutionary rung on the ladder of our soul growth in earth school. Today was one of the most sacred days of my life. I showed up a different me. I am growing in a garden of the most amazing women and I love each one of them so very much. Thank you Brigitte for inviting me. Thank you to Kari, Carolyn, and Jan. thank you to Jordy, Kokanee and Comet and the other horses. Thank you mostly to GOD and my Divine Team for bringing me this experience of a lifetime. I am so blessed. I am healing. I am so grateful.
If you want to have this experience you can find them at
www.trailblazeronfire.com and at www.prairiegirloutpost.com and you can connect on Facebook at
If you want to learn more, you can also chat with me at (403) 850-2532.
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