I told her I would not be yelled at, said goodbye, and hung up. I was hurt and decided to go and get a burger at A&W. I got some air. As we were driving a big lady bug dropped onto the roof of my car. That is a sign from Mother Mary. Mother Mary healing quality is self- love. That was huge for me to love myself enough to not give one more ounce of myself to the negativity of this lesson and to only continue to send love. This is their lesson now.
This painting is from http://velvadawn.com - The Goddess Healing Matrix System course. Card #2.
Mother Mary is prevalent in my life. She is the mother of Jesus, our Holy Mother and A Divine Goddess.
She teaches us to love ourself and to fill our cups with love by nurturing yourself. Her colour is rose pink and her crystal is rose quartz.
Women must give love to themselves so that can be of service to their family and loved ones. When we continuously give to others, as I have, we forget to fill our own cups and then we get into trouble and start feeling bitter and resentful toward the very people whom we love the most. We must tell ourselves " I love you" and really learn to believe it.
Today I love myself enough to move on. I must forgive and send love. I have healed my worthiness and my feelings of not being enough. I have always felt inferior my entire life, and to be told today that I thought I was better than her was a huge shock. My 5 fears that I have worked through are
1. not being enough
2. not being liked
3. feeling worthy
4. being judged
5. giving my power away.
As she is my mirror I will learn from this. I will fill myself up. I will live from my spirit and not my ego. I know the truth. I apologized way more times than they ever have so now I "LET GO". I learn the value in this lesson, I will teach from it and I will keep moving forward. I don't need to beg people to like or love me. I am loved and lovable. The right people will see me.
A Course in Miracles also teaches me I am whole, perfect and complete.
I am a piece of God himself. I am love and I am light. I am!!
God bless you all.
Love and angel blessings.
I love you.