How is your January so far?

Wow!! 2019 has started with so much growth!  I sometimes wish I had a crystal ball to tap in to the future. However, I know that God's will is always being served in my life. Thank God that I have an anchor, because I have needed it.  January started with much energy going on in my life.  I found I was having triggers that I hadn't had to this magnitude for a long time.

Late last year, I had decided to cohost an event with an amazing mentor of mine.  In a group that I hold dear and with respect.  I had wanted to help someone else on her healing journey.  I broke a cardinal rule.  I can't want for anyone else.  I don't have a right.  If I had been listening and tuning in, I would have seen and known that.  However, I got caught up in the excitement of such an event.  I could feel it and I could see it.   Things happened swiftly.  The person I wanted to help wasn't ready and wasn't in a high enough vibration to be able to cope with such an event.  After some mentoring I was again reminded, I can't create for anyone else.  I can't feel for them and I can't want for them.  I got caught up in some energy that wasn't mine and things started to feel out of alignment.  The excitement turned to fear and I quickly stepped down.  With the stepping down, came much shame and guilt.  All of my fears surfaced and I became an emotional mess.  The physical manifestation of the stress was headaches, sore body and an intense rash that hurt!!  I knew that I had to do something.  I am so blessed that I have been on a healing journey for the last nine years and have beautiful mentors who help pick me back up.  My mentor emailed me and asked me a few questions.  Combined with what I have already learned, this is what I had to do to heal:

1. Identify who  is triggering me.
2. identify how was I feeling.
3. how has not speaking up hurt me in the past and was I reacting or responding to the situation?
4. what have I learned?
5. What would I do differently now?
6. what are the gifts, value in the lesson
7. write and burn letters to each of the people so that I could forgive me and them for their part in the situation.
8. out loud I had to claim what was I angry at ?  I had to do it until I felt a shift.
9. then I filled up with I am statements.  I am enough.  I am valuable.  I am worthy.  I am forgiven.  I am loved.  I am safe.  Whatever you put after your I am becomes your life.
10. I had to create some new boundaries.  I had to step back for awhile.  I have to take some time for myself to heal some more.
11. I have to create some new patterns.
12. I have to continue to trust my intuition.
13. I have to continue to heal my heart.
14. Instead of reacting I need to be clear with family, friends and associates about what upsets me.
15. I had to clear my energy of any low vibes that I absorbed and to release myself from the shame and guilt.

Healing is a journey and it is continuous.  Today I know that I am a good person who is doing her best.  Taking some time to sit with who I am, what I want for my life and how I will achieve my goals is my prime focus. I continue to clear and maintain my energy and I will count my gratitude, for today is a gift!  I thank God for the unconditional love. I thank my angels for all the messages they send.  I thank my guides and my family in spirit as I was getting so many messages of what to do.  I am continuing to learn to trust that inner guru- that Divine wisdom that is within all of us.  I continue to trust that life is happening for me and not to me and I have faith that my journey is Divine.  I forgive me and I look with compassion on those I hurt and on the hurt I caused myself and mostly I continue to love myself to health!!!
I know that I am love.  So today I affirm it and I remind all of you that no matter what you are loved.  So go adjust your crown, head up darling.  We got this!!

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